love is deeper still.
Kevin and I leave for Asia on April 1st, and that fact alone is blowing my mind.
It has seemed exotic, adventurous, and a tad bit romantic to think that we are moving together as a young couple to a foreign country to do something good and bold and kind.
Together.
But tonight.
tonight the sobering fact of evil faced us head on, and I wept.
my soul spilled tears,
deep,
and mostly heavy.
the weight of something unbelievably evil.
nefarious, in fact.
my good friend Isaac, who works in an aftercare home for girls rescued out of sex-trafficking in Cambodia, recommended that we watch the documentary called "Nefarious" in an attempt to help prepare ourselves for the work we will be doing in Nepal.
"prepare"might not be the most useful adjective to describe the effect this film had on me.
maybe more liked "wrecked".
yes, it wrecked me.
kevin and nate and i just sat still when the movie ended.
in the dark. as the credits rolled.
my mind a screen, replaying the image of hell.
but for as deeply evil as the most heinous act in the film,
what struck me raw,
to the core,
was that's Abba's LOVE was the hero.
Corrie Ten Boom said,
"There is no pit so deep, that God's love is not deeper still.”
when all that was perverted and abused and twisted and dark transpired,
it was only,
only,
the deep agape,
the love without condition or any condemnation,
that saved these women.
that shone LIGHT.
every women who testified of such torture,
ended their story full of redemption in a Savior that loved them with an
overflowing,
unconditional
stream of agape.
and I fell at HIS feet as
Kevin and Nate and I
all prayed,
thanking him for the bright lights of His love,
that can bring our hearts out of despair in a way that no drug or 10 step process ever could.
the note of Christ's LOVE is where we landed.
yes there is evil, but that is NOT the end.
evil does not win.
God wins.
love wins.
I do not know how our time in Asia will go.
I am not sure exactly what we will be doing.
I have no idea how my feeble self will withstand the tales of torture.
But one thing I know is this,
my God,
my Redeemer,
He is LOVE.
and where there is LOVE,
there is no fear.
so i want to be brave with my life,
and carry HIS love with me as we move and minister and live
in Asia.
thank you all for praying and standing with us as we prepare.
we are humbled.
and please please please watch the film Nefarious.
you can see the trailer here.
{and don't say i didn't warn you. it will wreck you.}
but in bravery,
be ever wrecked for the kingdom,
swimming in His love.
love Katie